Sunday, September 19, 2010

1,2 ... 3??

balancing act

noun
: an attempt to cope with several often conflicting factors or situations at the same time
I have this theory that if I can have 3 days in a row where I can balance everything just right, 3 days where I complete everything on my to-do list then I can do it everyday ... But, day 3 always messes things up.

This is how it usually goes: I will wake up (let's say it's a Tuesday morning), get ready to head to campus, the first outfit I put on is "the one." Make a quick stop at Shell for gas and coffee. I feel great, I will have all the energy in the world, every song they play on the radio is my favorite, and traffic is less frustrating than usual. Classes go smoothly (no stalking, yelling, or kicking from angry students), I go home, get a little homework done, see Chris between his work and school schedule, then I'm off to the gym. After a great work-out, I head back home, take a quick shower, wait for Chris, make dinner, relax and watch some t.v., then we're off to bed.

Ok, so now day 2. Wednesday: wake up between 8 and 9, make some breakfast and watch a psych lecture, read a couple chapters for one class or another, pick up a few things around the apartment, then it's time for lunch and to get ready for work. Work is good, not too slow, not too busy. I leave feeling like I accomplished something at work and at home earlier in the day. Come home to my wonderful fiancee, make dinner, relax, maybe watch a movie and then it's off to bed.

... (insert Jaws sound effect here) ... Thursday. Day 3, the day it all goes down hill. I wake up late, can't find a thing to wear, traffic is horrible, classes seem to drag by, at least one professor piles a ridiculous assignment on me, traffic on the way home is horrible (why are there so many people on I-45 at 3 in the afternoon anyway), get home and realize I didn't lay anything out for dinner ... It keeps going in this manner. I will spare you the rest of the details (I feel you've been subjected to enough).

It happens this way day after day, week after week. I'm sure my 3 day theory is silliness, but it does bug me that I can't seem to have more than two good days.

My question to you is, how do you do it? I know I have a lot of friends that balance much more than I do, and do a great job of it. I feel like I'm failing with the few things I'm poorly attempting to balance. This morning I am sitting here wondering how I'm going to get 2 stats homework assignments completed, read two 40+ page chapters, study for my first demography exam, email the Dean, return some phone calls, fix lunch, cook dinner, and I really want to clean out my truck (I spend a lot of time in it and I'm so tired of it being a hot mess -- I guess we're a lot alike) all while being sick. Yes, again. I can't seem to get better and it isn't helping matters any ...

Maybe I'm just over complicating things or idolizing everyone who seems to have it more together than I do? Maybe no one truly has it all together, all the time -- but I can't even get the appearance down (an art I feel everyone but me has mastered) ... Is it about balancing everything or is it about relishing the moment when you mark just one thing off the ever growing to do list???

I know I can't be the only one that feels this way, I know we all feel overwhelmed from time to time, and we all have our coping mechanisms, I've just lost sight of mine recently and I need some help. (yes, I said it. I need some help *gasp* ... that's a whole other thing that bothers me, why does admitting that you need help seem to have such a horrible connotation? Like it's a huge character flaw, a sign of weakness, but that's for another time) ... So, tell me:

how do you do it???

xx

Friday, September 17, 2010

Drama is never in a recession ...

... Shaken not stirred.

Yesterday on campus, there was an incident involving another student following Ronnie and I around campus making threats b/c we asked him and this girl to stop talking during lecture. The kid followed us around for about 15 minutes mouthing off, demanding respect (obviously not willing to show any himself). He then proceeded to kick my feet as we walked away (for the 4th time) ... We made our professor aware of the incident, he spoke with the student, said he was confident it would blow over, but that we could follow up with the Dean of Students, which I intend to do.

This entire incident has me really shaken up. Honestly, I'm a bit surprised how much it has affected me. The fact that he kicked me when Ronnie wasn't watching leaves me feeling that if he were to see me walking alone on campus, he may try to retaliate against me. Also, I'm concerned b/c like me, this student is a Sociology major -- there is a chance that we will have other classes together in the future and he is not someone I want to face again.

The fact that asking someone to stop talking during lecture escalated to a violent, threatening situation is unnerving to say the least. I don't know what is going to happen next or how I will feel Tuesday when I return to campus, but it's not something I'm prepared to let go. It shouldn't have happened in the first place, and I believe that he should be held accountable for his actions.

My can of mace has been returned to it's rightful place in my purse (and not in my car where it has been).

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But lets not make this post all about the bad ... Today, I got to have lunch with one of my oldest, and bestest friends, Mikki. She is moving all the way to El Paso in a few weeks ): So hopefully, there will be MANY more lunches between now and then!

No plans for the weekend. Hoping to get together with Jamie and Joseph, maybe do dinner or something (if you two are reading this, it's a hint!). And I have massive amounts of studying to do on Sunday, two exams in the same week is never fun! For now, I'm off for another great Friday night spent Krogering!

xx

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Virgin Blogger Here

Ok, so ... what to say??? ... I guess I will start with what's going on right now ...

School. There's a lot of that. I'm working on a BS in Sociology with a minor is Psychology at UH. I should be finished with that in December 2011 and then it's off to grad school, not sure where yet but probably at UH. This semester is a lot of fun. Most of my classes are associated with my major, that's exciting! I'm taking: Population Analysis, Sociological Theory (yea, that's a mouth full and a challenging course), Stats for Sociology majors, and Clinical Psych (ugh! Note to anyone considering a psych major at UH -- their psych department is horrible) ... I just turned in my first paper for theory, it was challenging to write but I think I did well on it. I can't wait to get the paper back, I'm such a nerd. I WANT MY GRADE!!!! LOL ... Next week commences the first exams of the semester, JOY! I'm ready though.

School isn't the only thing going on though ... I'm also working on getting back in shape. Going to the gym about 4 days a week for 1 to 2 hours each session. Feeling pretty good about my progress and determined to see more! (:

There's work and my amazing fiancee, Chris. He's going to school too. He's working on an Associates at Lonestar -- North Harris. Between working full-time and going to school full-time, he stays pretty busy.

Ooooooh!!! We just adopted a new kitty. She was a stray that kept appearing on our back porch. Chris let me feed her, then I named her (Nala), and then I let her in (: It was a long process b/c Alanis was not happy about someone new coming on to her territory, but she's been inside for about a week and a half now and things are going much more smoothly. Her, Piper, and Alanis were even chasing each other around the living room last night. It was really funny watching the 3 of them. (I can't believe we have 3 animals, 3 is definitely the limit ... I'm sure Chris will be glad to know I feel that way, LOL)

I do a lot of reading for school, but I'm trying to read more outside of that. I've bought 3 new books recently and I'm determined to read a little bit of one of them each day. I've started on Dirty, Sexy, Politics by Meghan McCain. I <3 memoirs and even though I'm only on page 22, it hasn't disappointed so far. I also bought Chelsea, Chelsea, Bang, Bang. I've read her other 2 books, so I'm excited to read this one. The other book I got is a bit more "educational" or whatever you wanna call it, LOL (I'm not much of a fantasy reader). It's Unhinged: The Trouble with Psychiatry - A Doctor's Revelation about a Profession in Crisis by Daniel Carlat. This is a topic that really interests me, so I think I will read this one next

Alright, I guess that is it ... This is my first attempt at blogging, so bare with me. I will get better, except my grammar, that wont get better, so that you can deal with (: Oh, and if you don't like my blog, you can blame Leslie (she is my inspiration)

xx